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Damaged Re-Released

So I mentioned ohhh about two months ago, that I was going to take Damaged down because it was in serious need of an editor.

I was fortunate enough to meet Sammie, who started off as a helper for the Violet Hour Book Reviews, and when I offered her a chance to read Damaged she jumped at it. 😉 maybe I am being a little over-zealous but I like to believe she was jumping up and down about it. I was 😉 anyways, she, the lovely peach that she is offered up to be my editor. And *coughPAcough* <- yup PA as well ^.^ so she just helps spread my “awesome-ness” to the world. with her own awesome flare.

So Sammie was wonderful, did a wonderful job, and then we had to do formatting again. My lovely formatter not only was swamped, but had personal things going on, so bless her, she is a doll and squeezed me in. Everything was ready to go, and all the while I was also working on getting a Box Set called Dangerous Lovers with some kickass authors. Which released about a week or so ago. ^.^ YAY. NOTE: it is A KINDLE BOX SET. there aren’t new stories in there sorry.

Anyways! ON TOP OF ALL THIS NESS GOING ON, I have been working on getting Healed (book two) out to my lovely betas, and forcing it down their throats before I get to force it down all your’s. So anyways Healed is written, is completed, in a sense. Its gone through one beta edit already, and I sent out the newest copy, and blah blah blahs. So Healed is coming along nicely. Does that mean I have information for you on it’s release?

Hmmm….yes and no. Here is my dilemma, as much as I wanna say, it will be out in two months, I mean why not right? Well to those who have finished the original/new copy of Damaged, thank you so much, and I love it! But Damaged had a bumpy start, and some things got a little skimped on the first time around. But also I started writing Healed at the end of November. So it took me about three months to write. That was just to write. Quite frankly I don’t want to be labelled right off the bat as an author that can push out a book every two months, I don’t know how these amazing ladies do it, but O.O eep!

That is one reason, second reason: I got some AMAZING, AMAZING NEWS. The wonderful Carlyle Labuschagne did this crazy Giveaway for a featured spot at her table, at UtopYA if you aren’t sure what that is, its one of the biggest growing Book Cons out there. It was a huge hit last year and I was INSANELY jealous of everyone that got to go, just in generals. If I could have, I would have been there. But I was in Chicago as it so happens that exact weekend XD. ANYWAYS! So this insane giveaway…guess who won, no seriously guess. ==> Yeah me. Somehow?!

This is an AMAZING opportunity. BUT, here is a little somethin’ somethin’ I love to hate to admit. I am not rich O.O WHAT?! I know, CRAY CRAY. So we have established I am not rich. Damaged has been off the market for two months after being on for about two weeks or so. I wasn’t doing horrible, in fact I was quite proud of my baby. Anyways the point was, I know a lot of authors have given me advice (and friends) to use my earnings from Damaged as my “book fund money” yeah… I don’t have “fund” for that really. Anyways POINT IS THIS:

So I spent a weekend hidden under my covers debating. UtopYA this is HUGE? How can I say no? So I didn’t. And I have been working on getting my own little stash of swag which now I am considering calling SOS HAHAHAHAHA its funny because I’m poor.

So now that I am working on my SOS, I am working at trying to get myself integrated back into the published world. I feel like I was a bit of a break during the time Damaged went down to about two weeks ago when I realized Damaged could go back into the world. Scary, but more thrilling thought as now I had a 1000 times for confidence in it because of all the amazing work Sammie did for me.

Third Reason I don’t have a date for you: Book Three is being a huge pain in my A$$, here is the thing. I am a mixture of a pantsier (am I spelling this right?) writer, and a planner. I get bullet points in my head, and I try to connect the dots as it were. So we meet a new character (quite a few actually) in book two which one of them will be having her own book. She is the character that is calling to me. Her story is almost next to crystal clear in my head… Nixie’s story, and I love her, I do. Is there but its murky. Its like I can see everything after the halfway point, but getting there? Not so much. That isn’t to say that I am going to release new mysterious character book first but I do have a way that i can do it. I can rework the series easily to fit the character’s stories as the way I want them.

BUT

oh yes there is always a BUT

I wanted to write a prequel. A prequel that I think might not be for everyone. And truthfully? I am okay with that. It is a story that I want to tell, that I think needs to be told. It would most likely be a NOVELLA. Which i am currently working on. I believe this will be the next thing to be released after Healed. so I know what you are thinking, pffft Becca then you have plenty of time to figure out Nixie’s book don’t leave us in the dust yo. Well here is the thing my fine speaking friends, you know how I did that epilogue, who was in someone’s POV I need to figure that out for book two before I release it, so it have to decide before then. So there is that.

Now that I am done running my fingers (aka mouth)

DAMAGED IS OUT AGAIN. I am so proud to say that I am feeling pretty good about it. Still waiting on reviews to start flowing in 😉 but that comes with time.

There will be more news about Healed, the cover is finished. I have been sitting on it for about a month now and I KNEW the moment I revealed this info I would be chomping at the bit to do a reveal, it will PROBABLY be happening middle/late April. So I know what you are thinking now: Becca you are going to tease us with the cover, but not the book WHAT DA FUDGE? Well UtopYA is happening in June that is A HUGE HUGE HUGE reason I am not considering June as a release month for Healed. Not only will I be stressed enough as it is, I know readers, they will be saving their cash monies for UtopYA … I don’t blame them I am too.

I encourage you all who have bought a copy that if you loved it, liked it, thought it was meh, or unfortunately you found that Damaged and me weren’t for you, that you leave a review. Of course I would hope if it wasn’t for you, that you be respectful in a review, but I wanna know what I can improve upon.

I don’t know what else there is to say other than thank you ❤

Thank you to all the amazing peoples who have supported me and helped me and those who are still to come ❤

Release Day Blitz: Dangerous Lovers Box Set

Release Day Blitz

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Six sizzling tales of adventure, love, and falling for the wrong one.

Book Trailer:

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Buy Links:


Deal

 

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Synopsis:

When her home is attacked by murderous vampires, 17-year-old Alexa is forced to leave her mother for dead in order to save her sister. She soon learns that she is the last known member of an elite race of supernatural Warriors, and is thrust into a world full of vampires and werewolves who all seem to regard her as some sort of savior. Meanwhile, Alexa battles a monster within herself that seeks to gain control; a monster that seeks blood.

The hidden city she finds herself in appears perfect, but Alexa’s instincts tell her that all is not right within its walls. When she is asked to attend a school of fighters, whose exams consist of gladiator-style competitions, she must decide who she can trust among the smiling faces. And, when she meets Kayden, a vampire she feels undeniably drawn to, she must decide if she can trust herself.

About the Author:

H. D. Gordon is the author of The Alexa Montgomery Saga. Blood Warrior, the first book of the Alexa series was her debut novel and has held a spot in the top 100 fantasy bestsellers for over a month. Half Black Soul is the second book in this series and H. D. plans to complete Alexa’s tales by the end of 2012. In June of 2012, Joe, a fantasy novel about a young clairvoyant, was released as well. H. D. is a lifelong reader and writer, a true lover of words. When she is not reading or writing she is raising her two daughters, playing a little guitar, and spending time with her family. She is twenty three years old and lives in the northeastern United States.

Stalker Links:

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/5189455.H_D_Gordon

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/HDGordonauthor

Twitter: hd_gordon

Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/H.-D.-Gordon/e/B009W9FNSY/ref=ntt_athr_dp_pel_1

Website: http://hdgordon.com/

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Synopsis:

Unfathomable forces have always contested Genevieve Indiana Falcon, known as Indie. The curse of her cold touch entraps her just as the grief ignited in her past torments her. Yet, her mysterious ability to dream while awake saturates her in the belief that she was not always anguished. There is hope that one day a true peace in her soul can be found.

Foolishly, Indie assumes she has contained her life in an odd balance, and she cherishes the visions she sees of the enigmatic boy that held her in a lost time, but can never reach. She grieves for a life she fears she’ll never possess, and that grief is a weapon she uses against her aunt who stands between her and her inheritance.

Weeks away from her twenty-first birthday, the date where she would assume control over her family legacy, a night terror robs Indie of the balance she was clinging to. Like the dream she had before she lost her family, it predicts a fatal catastrophe on the horizon. The fight between life and death, good and evil, began the moment her thundering heart awoke her.

Everything changed after that dream. The one thing that keeps her curse at bay is stolen, and then the enigmatic boy arrives in the flesh. Face to face with her fiery born-again lover Indie realizes that the only way she can prevent the tragedy before her is to surrender everything she was, is, and could be.

Can she bend the laws of nature and fight the improbability that fire and ice could ever be one? As far as Indie is concerned, there is not a myth, spoken fate, or curse that is stronger than her stubborn desire to have it all … including him.

The Rivulet series can be read on its own or as #11 in the Web of Hearts and Souls Series.

About the Author:

Jamie Magee has always believed that each of us have a defining gift that sets us apart from the rest of the world, she has always envied those who have known from their first breath what their gift was. Not knowing hers, she began a career in the fast paced world of business. Raising a young family, and competing to rise higher in that field would drive some to the point of insanity, but she always found a moment of escape in a passing daydream. Her imagination would take her to places she’d never been, introduce her to people she’s never known. Insight, her debuting novel, is a result of that powerful imagination. Today, she is grateful that not knowing what defined her, led her on a path of discovery that would always be a part of her.

Stalker Links:

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/4200019.Jamie_Magee

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/Insight.Jamie.Magee

Twitter: @Jamie_Magee_

Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Jamie-Magee/e/B004DAU5JY/ref=ntt_athr_dp_pel_1

Website:

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Synopsis:

All’s fair in love and war.

Two thirds of the world’s population has been wiped out, devastated by the worst war earth has ever seen. Still standing amongst the ruins is a mind reader who finds herself on the wrong side of the war. Everyone does what they must to survive. When the rebels bent on bringing down the New World leader start to rise up, it is her job to make sure they stay down where they belong. That is, until one rebel sneaks past her defences and into her heart. Love will blossom from the ashes, but will it be enough to save them, or will it mean the end of them both?

*This book is for mature audiences due to sexual situations, violence and strong language. NA

About the Author:

I am an author of YA novels, as well as, and most importantly, a mother to my two beautiful children!

Stalker Links:

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/5133625.Janelle_Stalder

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/janellestalder

Twitter: @jmstalder

Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Janelle-Stalder/e/B005PONU08/ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_3?qid=1394719299&sr=1-3

Website: http://janellestalder.com

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Synopsis:

Life or Death? Not many people would choose death. But what if death chooses you? What if death doesn’t mean the end of your life, but the beginning?

For a Death Escort, death is life. Death is your paycheck. Death is your job.

And Charming is the best Escort the Grim Reaper has ever had.

But when you piss off the Reaper, being the best doesn’t matter. So Charming is assigned a Target who is practically impossible to kill. He knows the Reaper hopes he fails—that he’s counting on it. So Charming vows to prove him wrong. He vows to make the kill.

But someone else vows to get in his way. Someone with a big mouth, a sugar habit, and blond hair. Someone who makes his heart start beating again.

And so Charming is left holding more than one person’s fate in the palm of his hand. He thought the choice would be easy, that there really wasn’t a question at all.

He was wrong.

Life or Death?

About the Author:

Cambria Hebert is a latte sipping author of the Heven & Hell series, the Death Escorts series, and the Take It Off series. She loves a caramel latte, hates math and is afraid of chickens (yes, chickens). She went to college for a bachelor’s degree, couldn’t pick a major and ended up with a degree in cosmetology. So rest assured her characters will always have good hair. She currently lives in North Carolina with her husband and children (both human and furry) where she is plotting her next book. You can find out more about Cambria and her work by visiting http://www.cambriahebert.com

Stalker Links:

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/5298677.Cambria_Hebert

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/pages/Cambria-Hebert/128278117253138

Twitter: https://twitter.com/cambriahebert

Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Cambria-Hebert/e/B00CYQ2ROK/ref=ntt_athr_dp_pel_1

Website: http://www.cambriahebert.com

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Synopsis:

Attention: This is an ADULT Book!

Dark Waltz–A sizzling legend of loss, lust and love.

It’s the year 2030 and the human population has been annihilated by a virulent form of small pox. Liasare Davidson is desperately searching for her brother, who has been missing for three months. It’s been eighteen years since she was evacuated from Earth and she is horrified to see it’s become a cesspool of unimaginable things.

In her quest to find her brother, she meets Jurek, a powerful and enigmatic being that frightens her, yet she is unable to resist. When things begin to unfold between them, they both discover a paralyzing truth that puts Liasare at grave risk. She must make a choice to join Jurek and find her brother or fulfill a role she believes she is ill equipped to undertake.

About the Author:

One day, on her way home from work as a sales manager, A. M. Hargrove, realized her life was on fast forward and if she didn’t do something soon, it would quickly be too late to write that work of fiction she had been dreaming of her whole life. So, she rolled down the passenger window of her fabulous (not) company car and tossed out her leather briefcase. Luckily, the pedestrian in the direct line of fire was a dodge ball pro and had Ăźber quick reflexes enabling him to avoid getting bashed in the head. Feeling a tad guilty about the near miss, A. M. made a speedy turn down a deserted side street before tossing her crummy, outdated piece-of-you-know-what lap top out the window. She breathed a liberating sigh of relief, picked up her cell phone, called her boss and quit her job. Grinning, she made another call to her hubs and told him of her new adventure (after making sure his heart was beating properly again).

So began A. M. Hargrove’s career as a YA/NA and Adult Romance writer. Her books include Kissing Fire, Edge of Disaster, Shattered Edge, the series the Guardians of Vesturon (Survival, Resurrection, Determinant, Beginnings and reEmergent), Dark Waltz, Tragically Flawed, Tragic Desires and Exquisite Betrayal.

Other than being in love with being in love, she loves chocolate, ice cream and coffee and is positive they should be added as part of the USDA food groups.

(If you’re wondering, it didn’t happen EXACTLY that way, but….)

Stalker Links:

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/5338829.A_M_Hargrove

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/AMHargroveAuthor

Twitter: @Amhargrove1

Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/A.M.-Hargrove/e/B0069RM3GM/ref=ntt_athr_dp_pel_1

Website: Http://www.amhargrove.com

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Synopsis:

There are some beings in this world, long thought to be extinct. Some seek to protect them, others want control, but some . . . some are hell bent on their destruction.

Audrey was taken from her father, hidden away from the world, and tortured for five years. She was rescued, but is she really safe, or is there someone else waiting to betray her? Can she trust those who saved her? Can she learn to accept who she really is?

Stone was on a routine mission to extract valuable information from a rival clan of paranormals. Instead, he and his team find something much more valuable: a scarred, damaged young woman who holds many secrets, and whose power is beyond anything they could ever have imagined.There is much more to Audrey than meets the eye and Stone is determined to protect her.

Audrey and Stone are about to find out it’s hard to know who to trust.

(New Adult, contains language and sexual content. 18+)

About the Author:

Head Reviewer @ The Violet Hour Book Reviews

Oh jeez…do you know how many people I told I didn’t want to write this? So here is the one my friend made me:

Becca Vincenza lives in wonderful Michigan. She has a love for Skittles, rainbows, Star Wars, *giggles* and Hot Men. She spends time in her basement with Airicka… Apparently that’s where the best ideas come from.

Any who….she loves meeting new people, so feel free to message her on Facebook and friend her on Goodreads!

Although her phone number will not be given out because, well…she doesn’t like heavy breathing.

So a sort of serious one: For real, I am a geek. I grew up watching Star Wars, and my father read Lord of the Rings to us, along with the C. S. Lewis series. I love to write. In all honesty, it took me a lot of work to get where I am today and I don’t regret a moment of it. Reading and writing are honestly the best things ever. I couldn’t be happier that my parents put me through so much extra help. Anyways! Me, me, me…. Huh…I love paranormal stuff…Love it.

Stalker Links:

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/7278389.Becca_Vincenza

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/beccavincenza

Twitter: @BeccaVincenza

Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Becca-Vincenza/e/B00I5BJL5Q/ref=ntt_athr_dp_pel_1

Website: https://beccavincenzaauthor.wordpress.com/

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Over-eagerness leads to…

Pffffttt 

So here we are again. 

Right before I published Damaged, I sent out a long, probably annoying blog post about how I was worried about certain aspects of Damaged. Mostly being the editing. 

Look I was well aware when pushing the publish button, nay even before then because its not just pushing the button its also formatting the book, I knew before even then that there were problems in Damaged, I was hoping it was stuff that could be overlooked. 

Unfortunately, and please don’t kill me for this….but confession time: I didn’t actually read the last copy of Damaged until it was published. *winces* I have the worst anxiety when reading my own stuff. And I realized how BAD of a decision this was. But okay i am not trying to make excuses but I really think I need to just get this out there.

Now before I go on I want to say this:

1) this is not a bashing of my friends 

2) my betas really did go over and beyond

3) In the end the decision fell onto me and it was MY fault no one else’s 

So let’s start this story 

So at the end of August 2013 I finished Damaged, the book i decided would be my first published. It was not an easy choice, but one that I do NOT regret. My friend and we are going to call her Boop, told me she was more than willing and eager to edit Damaged, she is an English Major, editing is what she wanted to go into, but she is still in college, we both were at the time, and she had a part time job working almost 30+ a week. 

So let’s add on editing a book shall we? I was so excited when she told me it would 2 weeks for her to finish at the latest. So I started the fun game of getting my name out there, started up a Facebook page, started this blog, just started. And I gave the tentative date of Dec 2013, for the final copy of Damaged to be done. (of course I didn’t realize some of the other things that went into publishing then, but I still think that was a pretty reasonable amount of time) 4 months. 

I waited for a month before I even got the courage to ask Boop how far she was. (see i am too nice, and not very brave) So again my fault…Boop was only 20 pages in… So freak out time? A little bit. So all of September I waited, and I finally decided that maybe it was time to look for help else where… I love Boop I do she is one of my best friends, but I also knew her work and school load. Another friend who I am going to be even more vague about offered up her help, i took it and she finished in about three weeks, all the while I was still waiting on Boop. Boop got to about 60 pages and we called it quits. 

I finally got it out to betas Mid-November. By now I already made the announcement to push Damaged back to January. Now by no means did I think I was so “popular” had this awesome following that was waiting on the edges of their seats to get Damaged in their hands ASAP but I didn’t like the idea that I had to push back the date. So okay. Back to the story. 

I warned my betas what had happened, and many *cough cough* all of them literally pointed out grammar mistakes, and things that needed to be changed. One in particular did a very in depth edit for me and I couldn’t ever be more grateful to her.

So after I got all my beta responses back, I added a few scenes, and la, la, la, and had one of my betas who I knew was a major grammar nazi to do one last read through. She has a life though, as we all do. So anyways she finished mid-January but I was on the verge of biting off my own hand forgoing the nails because I was that nervous, that I would have to push back the release date AGAIN. (i had earlier said early Jan but I changed it to late Jan) anyways… so got that done, and it was time for formatting, and even my formatter caught a few things – thanks to her also.

So then I sent out the ARCs…

I knew that Damaged was perfect but I thought it was good enough, and I had waited 4 months after probably at least 5 or 6 months of writing it, of building up wanting to publish this. I was tired of waiting. I was tired of pushing back the date. So I just went for it. 

I got a few comments about the grammar, it wasn’t too bad. Then a few more reviews rolled in, again we come back to more comments about the grammar. And that was the pushing point I decided to talk to my amazing, lovely, PA if she wanted to do a re-edit of Damaged, she agreed ❤ It’s in the works.

I always try to look past grammar when I am reading, I realize there are just some books that are literally not enjoyable because the grammar, the sentence structure, the blah blah blah is just that bad, like the published their first draft. So … *sigh* I get it. But I didn’t want my book to ever be like that. So that being said, Damaged is going to go through a re-edit, because of this I am going to leave it at 99 cents for now.

I don’t have the heart to pull it from amazon, smashwords, and yeah, so for now its going to stay up. But I want peoples to know that I am VERY aware of the problems in Damaged, I am taking measures to fix them. Thank you for your time.  

 

The Disillusions of Self-Publishing

So this is my week’s reflection of self-publishing, I decided to do this post so early because I want to know how I feel fresh out of publishing then a year from now maybe I can laugh at myself and be like, and you thought you were going no where fast, or maybe I will look at it with jaded eyes and be where I started. Or maybe just maybe I will pat myself on the back and say, “You go girl!”

I am beyond proud to say I self published my first book a week and a day ago. It was about a seven month process beforehand for me. I think this time around with book two things will have sped up, and anyways so it was a long torturous process,

I am not going to lie there were I think at least three times I was seriously considering just being done with it all and just go back to reviewing and giving up a life-long-ish dream.

So I’m a college student, soon to be graduate, do you think I have money?

So I was doing this on a SMALL budget, but one thing I was sure I wanted to do, and that was to do it right.

Unfortunately I had no idea what I was doing besides writing…

Even then I had my own anxieties about, I hadn’t ever let someone outside of my circle of friends read my stuff, seriously not even my family looked at it, friends only. And then people – cough cough Stephanie Constante cough cough – gave me the courage to do it, in a way. And truthfully it all came down to – well I can just never try and i will surely fail, or I can take a shot at it. To me (stupid silly past me) my thought process went like this:

1) Write the book

2) Get a cover

3) Edit the book (have my friend do it)

4) Publish that bitch

Good, Good Simple as pie right?

HAHAHA – authors you can laugh its your right!

So after being quickly disillusioned by this idea, then began the real process (Am I allowed to be telling this or is it author secret club only?)

Step One: Gear yourself up for some writing!

2) Edit that bitch BY YOURSELF FIRST, not necessarily meaning grammar stuff if you are like me and suck at all things grammar – yes i realize the problem of this (don’t worry i got a pile of Grammar for Dummies books that I will soon become best friends with so its easier on my new editor Sammie who I love – she is post Damaged)

Usually ends something like that. So after you have ripped out all hair that you could without going bald because you will be some more for later books I’m sure 😉

3) Send to Editor.

And wait.

And wait.

And wait.

And wait.

(maybe this was just me)

And this will be a new process for me for book two – Healed

(but i am assuming there might be the need for some more changes if you agree with what creatively your editor says – grammar wise you ALWAYS LISTEN they are smarter than you I promise you that)

4)  BETAS – I know not every author does these, but I couldn’t have done anything without mine, they saved my life, and I bow down to them, for realzes

^^^ that’s me to them^^^

So after they tell you want they feel needs to be done, choose what you want, for me I ended up adding some things and cutting others.

5) Edit ONE.MORE.TIME.

6) Have you gotten your cover yet?

Damanged by Becca Vincenza (Amazon)

So after getting that And after paying a much more talented cover designer then yourself at least that is how it for me because the only software I have access too is Microsoft Paint, and my cover designing skills are non-existent.

So now you got your cover, now you have reveal all this stuff, I was sort of part of the community already asking friends and other blogs I knew to help me out, easy peasy, not so much when you are coming from the outside completely, you have to gear yourself up and pull up your big girl pants and start emailing, pleading, pretty much selling your soul

So that’s done. Let’s try to get you a following now, oh right , they don’t know you from Adam. Seriously 😐 why read someone’s books that I don’t even know what your style is, I have no references its like applying for a bad job. But in the end its a bit worse because in the end (thankfully hasn’t happened to me yet) people can hate your stuff, and they can be really, really mean about it. Sometimes its hard to remember there is a person on the other side who – totally doesn’t – stalk Goodreads/amazon/booklikes/facebook/google themselves looking for any new reviews someone might not have posted on any of those said sites.

7) Did you know that you can’t just send in your Word Doc to KDP and say, make it a mobi now?

(honestly I thought so – I thought it worked like magic)

So if you want to send hours (I have sources) doing this, or you can find yourself an amazing formatter who will be willing to torture themselves in exchange for your *money* which is fine by me! But if you are trying to publish on a budget it means looking around for the best price and someone who isn’t going to rip you off – thank the lords I had friends in high places who were willing to work their own magic aka connections and help me out.

8) So after getting that done, gear yourself my loves, its time for the RELEASE DAY

Here is the hardest day of all. I went into this day trying to not to get my hopes up too high, I tried not to be like, “of course I am going to sell over a 1000 (cough cough 100 cough cough) copies today” Because well I have seen plenty of release days, I have seen those high numbers and my eyes were shining and I was allowing myself to dream….

And I crashed pretty hard that night…luckily I had a friend who sat with me, told me that I was being stupid, and stop being so damn hard on myself.

This was only the beginning, it was one day out of a million, and not everyone is going to be selling over 100 copies on their first day. Most of the time, you are going to have to work your damn ass off. (paraphrased of course)

So I pulled myself out of my dumps and starting working my butt off, I contacted blogs that I knew who were interested in Paranormal reads, as its difficult now being that the “hottest trend” right now is Contemporary Fiction, and ahem it seems in my circles – BDSM Erotica – and being that I can’t help but giggle – seriously laugh – everytime I read “Master” nottt really my theme – I am willing to try them out just not right this minute because there are authors that I ADORE that are writing that kind of stuff, and its not because they are selling out, but because they are branching out and trying something new, they are going with the flow and putting themselves out there. And I say “Fuck yeah!!” but I know for a FACT, that I do not write very good Contemporary Fiction, in the future maybe after I have played around with it more I will do that, but for right now I am sticking with what I know.

so moving on

9) Watching those around you succeed.

And right about know you are thinking: Oh my god, did she just say that? Is she is going to say what I think she is going to say?

Uhh no. Probably not, unfortunately I have this horrible disease called: I’m too nice for my own good.

I am so damn proud of everyone around me who were my release day buddies, they are doing amazing and reminds me that one day I can be just like them, I can have that awesome day where I feel like nothing can touch me! (I already did but maybe a 1000 times more)

Is it wrong of me to think this way?

No. and if you think so then I don’t care. Is it wrong that I want to succeed in the career I had only dreamed of ever having? Absolutely not.

10) My final point of the Disillusions of self-publishing

In the end, success is what you make it. I am fortunate enough to be in my first week of publishing with 13 (it would be 14 but that would be including my own rating 😉 ) 5 stars, and 4 – 4 stars all together that is 18 ratings (including mine) and 14 reviews (all either being 5 or 4 stars)

So there will be that bad rating/review waiting for me around the corner I am sure, but for right now, I am riding my high of awesome-ness.

So what I didn’t end up selling so many books, so what I didn’t actually make back what I put into this book. I got 17 people (correction – there are 5 currently reading peoples)  22 CONFIRMED readers, and I know there some even from my home life reading it. That is 22+ people I never had read my work before. That’s all sorts of awesome.

The biggest thing here though, is my journey through my first self-publishing wasn’t all that terrible, I had people backing me up, I had friends who were more than willing to help me out every step of the way.

And the biggest disillusion of self publishing is thinking that you are alone.

Every Time

Every time I have a freak out – and trust me I have A LOT. i am not writing this fishing for compliments I am writing out the truth. Person to person. Kay? This isn’t a pity me post, it isn’t a feel sympathy post. This is me expressing something that I really need to get out there. 

I freak out every time i really thinking about releasing Damaged. That isn’t to say that I don’t love my book, I do. That isn’t egoistical, a) that would be ridiculous b) i have every right to be damn proud of something i poured my heart and soul into.  

BUT. (there is always a but – well i should certainly hope there would be 😉 ) anyways…. BUT. I freak out. I freak out because I have had workshop classes in college, I have taken creative writing classes. I have HAD people read my unpublished work and criticize me. It’s terrifying. It can be devastating. It can be so much more. I freak out because i am a pessimistic at heart, and in reality i am a realist. Not everyone is going to love Damaged – OH GASP! – I know this. Still doesn’t make things easier. I freak out because all I can think in my awesome pessimistic, poofy haired head is: no one is going to like it. (please don’t comment saying of course people are going to like it – i realize people will its just how my mind works). I freak out because I didn’t PAY for an editor this time around. I didn’t have the means to. Things surely would have been missed. Shit happens, people make mistakes. I freak out because in the end, the person who gives my book it’s first one star rating, for them it will be a lost of a couple hours, and a few cents. For me? It will be a heartbreak that will probably last me the rest of my life. (and please don’t say you need to let this things just roll off your shoulders) I KNOW this, trust me I do. I also know how much it hurts, and how much the bad stuff sticks verses the good stuff even though we try to ignore it.

So every night getting closer and closer to my first ever release date, and I am threatening tears – yeah fucking tears, I don’t cry easily. (well that is a lie I get super emotional when I am sick, a lady, or when I watch Fox and the Hound because I mean if you don’t cry in that movie i might think you are a robot) And I think to myself, why the hell am I doing this?

I look to my left. Above my TV (no, sorry to say its not Friends on Nick at Nite that gets me through it) It’s the poster that I received from an author friend of mine. A friend who passed at the beginning of the year. I look at it, and I am reminded that life isn’t predictable, and if I don’t do this, IF i don’t take this leap I will forever regret it. 

So for once i am going to say FUCK IT. I am going to do exactly what I want. And I am not doing this for you, sorry whoever you are. But i am not. I am not doing for my friend who passed. I am not doing for the other author’s posters that are on my walls. I am not doing it for them I am doing it for me. For once in my life I am putting myself completely and utterly first. 

This is MY dream. I thought it was a fairy tale if I am going to be perfectly honest. I thought it was a damn fairy tale, not something I would never really be able to do. Now I can. And as scary as it maybe, and even I have to deal with people not loving it, not accepting it. Well at least I can say I published a book. 

So every.single.time. I think about how this is the scariest, stupidest, shittest idea I could have ever done because I know bad things can happen. I know people can, and might actually might try to ruin me at every step of the way. At least I did it. At least I followed through on my dreams. 

So win or lose. I did it. Every time I win. 

 

And thank you for listening to me rant, and be a bit of a bitch 😉 catch ya on the flip side yo 

Release Date – yeah you read that right

So FINALLY after on my I don’t know changing tentative dates on you all for two months now? I think I finally FINALLY, FINALLY HAVE ONE!

Yup, yup, yup!

I have to seriously thank so many people a 100 times over for

A) being there for me

b) listening to me complain and complain and complain and be the biggest baby in the world

c) For helping me through the process

d) Sticking with me for this long

So why did it take me THIS LONG to give you a final, for realz, in cement date?

Welll I had a couple different people looking at Damaged, I had betas who went through it – and they were wonderful and I adore them for everything they did for me. I really think they helped shape this bad boy up. I have to thank my friend Jaime so sososo much because she (after i pleaded and begged) her to do a final run through of edits for me, she did. You know just making sure there were no repeat paragraphs (there were), making sure that I didn’t forget words (i did) and so much more. So after that was done.

I had to decide, go with someone else formatting this? Or should I try to do it myself? Yeah no I went with someone. And I HAVE TO THANK HER A MILLION times over ❤ So that is all said and done, publishing is shit ton more work then i thought it would be

Seriously no, call me stupid, call me naive i don’t care. This is what I thought when I started: I will have a couple people read through it, make sure everything is in the right place. Get a cover. Hit DA BUTTON. HA! what a joke. It was literally to the point i wanted to rip out my own goddamn hair (sorry I swear, I like swear words i think they are fun) anyways. So after what August is when i finished writing Damaged, so September, October, November, December, and most of January was me trying to figure this all out – and while somethings I had personal problems with everything worked out. I learned so much. And you know what, I think this might be the most rewarding this I have ever done. Crazy as it sounds, and I know I sound like a damned loon right now but bear with me.

I have a twin. O.O (GASP!) I have a twin she looks nothing like me, and no i am not going to post a picture of her either. Anyways. The point is I have always had someone, always, always, always. We did the same sports, we had a lot of the same classes, we both did marching/concert band, and then even when we got older and went to different colleges. I had my best friends, two of my best friends were going to the same college as me. There has been a lot of times in my life, I have always been part of a group, always doing something with someone i REALLY knew, someone I could totally and utterly rely on. And THIS, this was just me – granted I had two friends helping with the beginning part of this (friends from home). But I was finally doing something without my twin, or my friends from home there. I had my online friends who quickly became my family helping me and encouraging me but this felt different for me. Finally I was stepping up and doing something.

And you know what? I have already won. I have already “made it” out of my beta readers none of them – and i wasn’t suspecting any of them to tell me it was shit but i was expecting them to honest with me, they loved it. And that is what I wanted. I want people to get what I get from reading when reading Damaged… does that make sense? Hhahaha okay. So I want to be able to help readers to escape for awhile, to read something that isn’t going to change history or stop wars anything like that. I just wanted to write something that is going to help Ashley (i pick that name only because i knew at LEAST 10 Ashleys in my graduating class) disappear for a couple hours a day – or however longs to take to read Damaged. So yeah I won. But I just wanted it to be available to the general public and i know not everyone is going to love it, but that is okay. It will be okay. So you want that release date now?

 

January 31st. Whoooo i got a little thrilly chilly shiver going up my spine.

Can I say it again? I am going to, you can’t stop me. January 31st.

JANUARY 31ST!!!!!! So if you will, if you are almost as excited as I am right now share this date?

Make sure the word gets out. ❤

And thank you.

A special bit

So while Damaged is going through it’s very, i mean this really I do, VERY last edits. I am going to send out the ARCs and about a week later – I am hoping, I will hit that publish button. Now I know I KNOW i have been horrible first it was December, then early January, now its going to be later-ish January, funny how time flies….and gets away from you. But I promise, if it means I have to publish this bad boy half way through its last edits – which is just making sure those pesky little commas are in the right place for um…new scenes that arose out of beta reads, then that is what i will do. I am as eager as you!

So, sosososososo what’s this little post about?

Well since I feel like such an ass for doing the oh i promise it will be out now, then it gets pushed back again are you interested in learning about where i am going with this series?

So. As of right now I have 5 full-length novels (including Damaged) planned out, and one Novella.

So there is Damaged: Audrey and Stone’s story.

Healed: Book Two Elijah and Valentine’s Story

Broken: Book Three Nixie and Dallas’ story

Untitled: Book Four Ami and undecided name story hehe

Burned: Book Five Marcus and undecided name2 story

So yes this is going to be a series that uses different characters for each book, but the running plot problem is is there. I am not sure things may change with how many books I decide to have, but as of right now that is how it is looking. I have each one having a summary plot in my head, some are more complex than others, but for right now that is what I am going for. So I know these are names you don’t know at all but Valentine, Ami and the two undecided names are NOT in Damaged. They appear later in the series – you meet both Valentine and Ami in book two which i am currently working my little fingers to the bones on. I am plot wise about 1/4 ish done. Hahaha but don’t let that freak you out, I know where i am going with it, and how i want things to go its just the matter of getting it down XD.

So there will be one Novella that I am actually working on right now as well. This how long its going to be I really have no idea. This isn’t really part of the running plot of the five books though this is a sort of prequel that goes into the first part of Damaged. I will tell you the name but I cannot tell you the characters, spoilers and all that. 😀

A Rebirth Novella: Stolen

So what does Rebirth stand for? What does this mean?

The world I created is on Earth – don’t worry 😉 its not a high fantasy. This mostly only deals with the paranormal side of the world though. Over a century ago elder races who were mixture of different elemental Gods or even a pure race from one God ruled the paranormal world, they kept peace, and as a reward and hmm how do I put this (sorry i am very candid sometimes) it was a way to keep peace between different types of paranormals and families.

True mates doesn’t necessarily mean insta-love it just means the person that they are destined to be with, they don’t have to like each other very much at first, and it doesn’t mean they have to accept other but it was the Gods way of thanking their loyal paranormals.

Conflict started to arise though, the elder races began to speak up about humans knowing their secrets. It wasn’t unheard of for a paranormal to have a human mate, but the world did not know and the paranormal’s felt suppressed. Many paranormals didn’t agree, in fact they were down right pissed. They gathered together and started an uprising. Unknown to humans a war raged on, Elder Races were thought to be killed and extinct. This caused the Gods to turn their back on their creations and the true mates started to disappear.

The paranormal world broke apart into different Clans ruled by families. The thought to be extinct creatures are reemerging.

And tada! So know you are a little more informed about the Rebirth Series. I hope you enjoyed that. sorry this is very unedited, and I am lazy enough to admit I am not going through it XD i am better with my books i swear I just want to get back at writing hahaha ENJOY!

Updates, Updates, Updates

So in case you were worried, I am not died….yet XD

Bad joke….

Anyways so as of right now, I am hard at work with school, work, literary haven, writing book two, hehe yes writing book two you read that right, christmas shopping, pretending to christmas shop and pretending to get these final papers done for school. It’s all a bit hectic. 

So Damaged. Last beta is finishing up she has updated me and she is HOPING the 15th. We shall see, then I have to go through it, and do my own personal creative edits as I call them, then editor needs to go through it one last time, THEN THEN THEN THE ALL SCARY, ALL INTIMIDATING …..PUBLISH BUTTON….O.O EEP. 

So what does that mean? That means hopefully we can get this bad boy out you by the first week of January, at the very latest the second week, I am not going to say an exact date until I get it back in my hands, and I start working on edits myself. Sorry :/ but book two is trucking along and hopefully I can get it out sooner than it took me to do Damaged 😉 I have been stringing you lovelies around for awhile now and I hope you know all know much this means to me I have some people that are just eager as hell to get it and I am eager as hell – sort of – to get out to you ❤ 

So this might be the last post before the end of the year, I will try to get something up about New years eve 😉 haha but happy/merry holidays, whatever you are doing 😉 

thank you all for being so patient and awesome 

Stops Along the Way

So the promotional blog tour of Damaged starts today!
I am so thrilled, and so excited so many blogs signed up to do this with me. I can’t even begin to thank them enough.

A HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE thank you to my partner and one of my best friends Hannah Pole. She is such a peach for allowing this to be our first real trial run at a blog tour. I couldn’t be more thrilled. This is such an amazing opportunity for me. I know I don’t have a lot of followers, and I know that I pushed back the date release on my book, but I am so glad for the people who have been supporting me this whole way through. I love you guys so much you are all wonderful and I am hoping Damaged lives up to your expectations. And to thank you and the bloggers helping me out I am offering up two ARC copies of Damaged in a rafflecopter. I hope you check out each day along the tour as each day will have a different teaser banner.

So here is the picture schedule ❤ (made by Hannah)

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And the plain old list ❤

November

18th
Literary Haven Meet and Greet
www.literaryhaven.com
www.facebook.com/LiteraryHavenPress
@literary Haven

Just Me,Myself,and I
purpleshadowhunter.blogspot.com
https://www.facebook.com/purpleshadowhunter
@g12princess

The Violet Hour
http://theviolethourbookreviews.wordpress.com/
https://www.facebook.com/TheVioletHourBookReviews?fref=ts
@VioletHourBookR

19th

Fairiechick’s Fantasy Book Reader
www.fantasybookreader.net
www.facebook.com/FairiechicksFantasyBookReader
@fairiechick

20th

Diva’s Literary World
divasliteraryworld.blogspot.com
www.facebook.com/divasliterary
@divasliterary

The Musical Book Nook
https://www.facebook.com/musicalbooklove

21st

Alicia Audrey’s Inspiration Tree
http://aliciaaudrey.com/blog
www.facebook.com/aliciaaudreyauthor
@_AliciaAudrey

Tiffany’s Book Hangover

http://www.tiffsbookhangover.blogspot.com/

https://www.facebook.com/tiffanysbookblog

@tiffsbookblog


22nd

BookCrushin
http://bookcrush.in/
https://www.facebook.com/BookCrushin
@Bookcrushin

Stephanie Constante
http://stephanieconstante.blogspot.com/
https://www.facebook.com/stephanieconstanteauthor

23rd

Fallen Over Book Reviews
http://fallenoverbookreviews.blogspot.com/
https://www.facebook.com/FallenOverBookReviews?ref=hl

Jazzy Book Reviews
http://bookreviewsbyjasmine.blogspot.com/
http://www.facebook.com/jazzybookreviews

24th

Dominique Goodall
www.dominiquegoodall.wordpress.com
www.facebook.com/dominiquegoodallauthor

 

Terri Dion

http://www.terrisbookaddiction.blogspot.com/

https://www.facebook.com/TerrisBookAddiction

25th

Literary Haven Sign off

BabyCakes Book Blog
https://www.facebook.com/BabyCakesBookBlog1?ref=hl
@CharBaby63

Hannah Pole
www.hannahpole.co.uk/blog
www.facebook.com/HannahPoleBooks
@hannahapole

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

News, News, News

So, so much news!

Okay so AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I am going on TOUR!

Yup you read that right I am going on TOUR!

Hannah Pole and I started our own blog tour/promotions company called Literary Haven

You can check out here: http://www.literaryhaven.com/

And we are doing a bit of a sample tour is what we are calling it right now. So its a week long fun times, of a spotlight post, ARC giveaway and yeah.

So when the official Tour Dates comes out I will post it up here, but for right now I know we are starting at The Violet Hour Book Reviews on the 18th of November and ending at Hannah Pole’s Blog on the 25th ❤

So that was one bit of news.

Next bit of news
The Literary Haven in general – well we are offering up a lot of different types of discounts and we would love for people to get excited about it, learn more about it, and if you are a blogger and would be interested we have a sign up form – and we would love to have you ❤
https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1fYPJijwnAh0lBdlFBNDlXsxoT0QtrpkqFqBXlrJFDgg/viewform

Kay now for some more exciting news

I have sent out a new teaser banner thing ❤ its like my most favorite thing ever. ANNNNND

Betas officially have Damaged. EEEP! I have been a whole ball of stress but its also all kinds of awesome

So yay! Thats really all I suppose.